noun an unhealthy and compulsive preoccupation with something or someone
this is long overdue, i admit. but hell am i glad it's finally here. the realisation that a prior obsession is nothing more than an empty shell, not worthy of obsession. pricks at one's interest, perhaps, but not enough to affect my life.
it's time i come out of your shadow, ely. believe me, i've tried and tried and tried, and it's been a steep uphill path. the unnecessary pain i've inflicted on jack and myself is just that, unnecessary. you're a beautiful individual, make no mistake, but you're also a part of my past. and as long as i allow myself to care about you, i'll always have doubts. i don't want to doubt myself anymore, not if i want to be happy with jack.
"us" is now, "us" is real, "us" is all i have. and i need to show you just how much this all means to me, and just how much you mean to me.
